#25 (22d) Mind Wars -dissolving the Mind
Mind Wars.
Perhaps 'Mind Wars' isnt the best title - there's not a lot of
love and compassion in it.. But it works for me at the moment!
Hopefully you have seen the "Real You" or at least glimpsed it as I have.If you've not experienced this then all that I've written in #22,22a,22b,22c,22d is just another belief system. ie something I say is true that you have not personally experienced
Find your own truth -please :))
As far as thoughts and mental anguish go -there is nothing here in the real you -in the you -the you who you really are.
But deductive reasoning and perhaps mere habit often brings us back to the mind -a mind who's central message is
"You are separate from the world"
So 'teachings' on enlightenment, and certainly all the self-help stuff everywhere ! focus their attention here..encouraging us to think differently.
Let me offer a simpler approach !(?)
If I dwell in the mind,my mini-me persona:-
I could imagine the "real me" to be a blank screen or empty bowl -there's a whole lot of Nothing in there.
There's Nothing - especially no thoughts.
It's an empty bowl
The Empty Bowl --This is a mental construct, wildly inaccurate and doesn't encompass our infinity ...hehe...BUT but I hope it serves us here.
Thus you can easily ask
Why do I need to have no attachment -when the 'Empty Bowl' -by definition isn't attached to anything??
Why do I have to eliminate desire? I've been told and can experience that separation goes hand in hand with desire -and this causes suffering.
But ..where is the desire in the empty bowl of Nothing??
The Real me has no desire -it doesn't have these things -no thoughts -right?
I do not have Desire! -
I am ...er....just....Me.
Thus to seek to detach or have 'no attachment' or 'not get involved' or 'be outside of things' or 'simply witness stuff 'or 'merely observe' and 'to not have desire' is what??
Well, it's just another mental construct -even MORE mind games.
It's what I call:-
Mind Wars
To try to not have desire in something that doesn't have desire anyway -seems a bit -er..logically unsound at best!
In fact , to seek not to have desire - may even solidify or create the unwanted desire in the first place!!!
"I mustn't think about pink elephants" -as they say!
It's Mind Wars in the Empty Bowl!
Mind Wars in the mini-me self that occur in the Real Me
Mind wars within Me
And it's Okay
Totally Okay
It's Life
.How to fix this--hahahaha.
Remember(?) and see who you Really Are.
This is Key.
Perhaps introduce your mind to helpful mental constructs - "I am really just an Empty Bowl without thought and yet this is just a helpful thought and doesn't approach a definition"
or "I am a thing without thought"
It's all badly inaccurate -but may be useful
Recall that WHO YOU ARE is not understandable with the mind only WHO YOU ARE NOT !
So I am giving the mind a thought "I am an Empty Bowl that has no thoughts"
Thus when I find myself - wishing I didn't have judgement I sort of 'catch myself in the act'.
The Real Me doesn't have judgement -thus to set up another counter-thought - "I mustn't have judgement(whatever)" is just Mind Wars.
What to do then with desires and judgements then?.
Firstly. Go Home to the Real You or if that's not happening employ my mental (in the mind) construct ..."I really am an empty bowl with any thoughts whatsoever"
Then when desires etc enter the attention or pass through ones consciousness:-
Just meet them
Be with them
Sit with them
Experience them
Look at them
The real you offers no resistance or disagrees with them or is frustrated by them or ANYTHING
right?
Just 'meet' the mental activity.
To label any content of the mind as unwanted or this or that is just more mental activity
Mind Wars.
I have found if I just meet the mental activity -all is well.
.Witnessing and Observing.
To witness or observe is sort of a separation isn't it?
But I have found there is no separation. Non-Duality.
This may not be your experience.
But you should be aware that to witness something could be done in a non-inclusive way.
"I am here -my desire is there"
Better might be:-
"I see my desire within me"
What do you think?
.To conclude.
You might have experienced the Real You that sort of sits behind the personality you have.
The Nothing yet Vast thing.
But we can use the mind to our advantage and you can think my argument through ,namely
--If there is no thought in the Real me -then why try to "have no desire" or "not judge" or "maintain non-attachment! or "non-involvment"???
When these things are not within You in the first place.!! no matter how complicated they appear.
In one moment You may find yourself meeting all of these:- a desire,the resistance to the desire, the wish to not have desire in the future, and frustration (emotion) concerning all of these !
Just sit with the whole thing and 'meet' it.
Mental activity may grow during this meeting such as "How can I get anywhere with all this stuff constantly occurring" and other seductive thoughts that look like they need be addressed!
Just meet the whole lot!!!
Pretty soon these things seems to go away or dissolve or calm down.
But if they don't - just remember the Empty Bowl or better sit will ALL MENTAL CONSTRUCTS as best you can :))
This all becomes much more easy the more you live in the Real me.
This is my experience.
I begin to wonder if the personality or the Mini-Me is a habit as much as anything else. The habit being for the attention to turn towards the mind for living itself and the path and answers here now seem to have a general 'colour' or direction to them -namely experiencing with separation.
.Mind Wars -there are no enemies.
Finally . The mind isn't an enemy or anything...this idea now should leap off the page here as just more thought...or leap into view when they occur as...more mental activity !!!
I can tell you what is in the Real me -for definite -plenty of Love.
This is my experience.
A love of Everything.
A love of Me.
.Personal Experience (blog type stuff).
I've been in the middle of a family crisis. One family member is in distress needs help and everybody is arguing about it. It's all very complicated and I will not pull it apart here.
But I've found I've been watching my judgements and emotions and very bloody strong emotions ! with the whole thing.
I also noticed mentally I sort of enjoyed the challenge of seeing the truth in the various difficulties and being able to judge the various participants....er....correctly !
So now that I am home after a week of stress and I thought I would try the methodology that I've been advocating - namely -just sitting with it all -meeting it....and see what happens.
Well there's a funny thing!
All the issues are all just mental constructs - this first became apparent.
Then I just looked at the thing and all the factors and interlaced complicated components.
And then it all just seemed to ...er...poof! Vanish.
They just went.
I cannot really describe it - to say these problems in my mind are 'silly' or 'unimportant' or 'just the play of Leela (Sankrit:playfulness in life)...is sort of true but these are just more mental labels!!!
The truth is the 'resolution' to this week of trauma doesn't exist in my little pea sized brain at all. The Peace is centred in the Real Me.
So that's that!
Sorry, no explanation seems to fit.
Also my little mind -the mind in the mini-me -seems to have learnt something also!
I now can think(!) that all worries and problems seem only to be of my own creation...the mental construct thingie that I've been waffling on about for ages.
It's all become more real -the fabrications in the mind.
I feel I could get all excited,guilty,worried,concerned,about anything really.
But it seems a bit -er - stupid. -but that's a mental computation and itself seems ..er....not wrong...but...er......there you go...the words fail again!
It's a viewpoint (?) from the Real Me.
There's no thought with it..maybe just a feeling of Peace and a little sigh from the lungs or maybe the heart.
Being the Real Me for increasingly larger an larger percentages of time is really fun thing!
When people ask me "How are you" - I just want to laugh!
I feel like saying " The weather is too hot, my back has started aching again and the family is giving me nothing but stress - Isn't it so wonderful and so much fun?
I don't have to see the world differently to free myself of suffering. I don't need a more relaxing mental construct or another fabrication in the mind placed on top of this mental fabrication.
I just have to be who I really am!!!
I am Me. What's the problem?
.Finding the Real You. It's sooooooo simple.
I employed a technique in #22c posting called "Stop" -have a look at that again if you wish.
Most importantly the spanish word for shark is tiberon.
.....did you feel your mind just stop with this irrelevant sentence ? That's who you are!!!
You are You. It's that simple. Everytime you want to mentally add anything to that just realise that it's a creation like a table or a chair - are you a table or a chair?
In fact have a look at how you define yourself with the mind and flip it all over.
I am not a spirtual being or helpful or loving or a great dresser or with problems or stressed out at the moment or nervous in front of Grandad or reincarnating or a person or anything...these things may be part of me or within me and may be very complicated -but , but
They do not define me !!!
Love
'The Undefinable'
Paloma Porta
24th May 2012
