#20 - Mind Part 2 -Separating from your emotions.
Quote from #19
"I have mentioned [...] that I consider emotions themselves NOT to be us.
But.
I think I might do a whole posting on this subject. It's a bit of a big 'ask' perhaps and would take quite a lot of really spooky spiritual stuff to download my ideas."
#20 - Separating yourself from your emotions.
First of all let me say I cannot explain it :) LOL
By which I mean I am not sure that language can exactly communicate this -but I will have a go -and try to point you at it!
.Signposts>> are placed in what follows.
I've put in these
Signposts>> to help keep us all on target.
Please don't look at my words for too long but look to where they point.
.Finding out who we really are.
As I said in #19 - if we cannot do that we can find out what we are not.
And in #19 I went into how we are not our thoughts.
I like to think I established that the mind and all thoughts are just things...like cars zooming by on the motorway (freeway -autobahn etc).
To expand on this...The car/motorway analogy works well -
I (whatever that is) ...I am the thingy that watches the thoughts.
Hmmm
Meanwhile there is my personality - your personality -who, for most of the time, we think we are.
Cars have many colours (all the colours of the rainbow: red and yellow and pink and green, orange and purple and blue)
People have many emotions.
But people change their emotions and cars don't change colour...not very often -
so forget about cars completely.
Consider the matter at hand - thoughts zooming by and watching them.
So being a person necessarily entails being in an emotion.
But am I a person? LOL
Signpost>> - She is struggling to explain now -keep reading!
But I (the watcher of thoughts) - do I have emotions?
You (the watcher of thoughts) - do you have emotions?
My most useful answer is:
Do you?
Tip:- Perceive these things only.
Once you fall back into the mind and deductive reasoning you're just another car on the motorway (I said forget about cars) - - -you might well as be - because thoughts and cars are the same .....they are all things!!!
Big Signpost >>Look,see,perceive.
The next step is apparent.
Watch your emotions!
But to do that I have to go to the really spooky spiritual metaphysical stuff.
.The really spooky spiritual metaphysical stuff.
The personality you have is just a point of view.
The person you think you are is just your creation in something...erm...bigger.
Signpost >> She's struggling again -keep reading!
Are you the same person (mentally) that you were when you were 12 years old?
Mostly not - I would hope.
But to an outsider these two personalities (not bodies) could they be talked to at the same time... would be seem as two different people. Right? ...
You know -maybe if it were possible for someone to talk to both on the phone and compare the two personalities.
The 12-year-old-you thinks different thoughts to the grown-up-you... they have different characteristics in their emotions too.
So you changed your entire (almost) personality -you became a different person over the years.
Who did that?
hehe
Whatever did that -wasn't a personality. Wasn't a person!!!
Who did that?
What are you?
When you remove the personality from the ..erm... equation(!)..what is left.
Well it is still you - but what's that?
If you feel 'circumstances' , your environment and/or 'Life' changed you over the years then what is the area where all this change took place?
What is 'behind' the personality you find yourself with?
Is this a more basic -or real you?
Signpost >> Now is the time to perceive and look and NOT to think
What does this ...entity......feel like?
Familiarise yourself(!) with this aspect or core of yourself.
Watch a few thoughts zoom by. ..."I need to clean my teeth..."I must read that book again"...
You can see plenty of other stuff around you both physical and mental - but not yourself -your 'core'.
You may find that you cannot really see what you are!!!
Signpost>> DON'T THINK - JUST LOOK!
You should now see my problem - this doesn't exist in the mind -how can I explain it?
In fact once one drops back into the mind and thinks -it sort of disappears from view.
So much for deductive reasoning (bathing in thoughts like it's some sort of nectar or something LOL)
The Enlightened Ones (!) live in this place.
I am not saying one should become Enlightened - but one should be able to 'visit' -in my humble opinion.
Signpost>> She doesn't exactly mean 'visit' because you are already there -it's who you are. Keep reading!
However when you hear some of the rubbish they speak (as judgements mostly) - one wonders where some of these Enlightened Ones really are!
I have retained my personality - I can have judgements... so there...ner,ner,ner - I never claimed to have dissolved my personality.
Having said that -I like to think that when I make a judgement - at least I know it is a judgement!
So this Core me or Real Me somehow has the possibilities of different personalities on it or within it (whatever).
But the Real me isn't the person -me (Mini-Me!)
The Real Me has a different viewpoint than the Mini-Me.
.More spooky stuff.
.We are Creators.
It's about Creation.
My 12 year old self and my adult self were created by the Core Me or Real Me (whatever that is).
...Created by me...
Well I like to think so - that's how it feels to me. - It wasn't my mother that made me (!) that's for sure.
When I agree to something - I create it also.
Only I can create my world
eg
"LOOK AT THIS MESS - YOU FILTHY BEAST!!"
I think to myself "Yes I agree [!!!!!] do leave a mess everywhere".
...and lo! in her 17th year, she was still messy.
I create my world
I create my personality
But what we COULD agree on and MAKE TRUE is that we are NOT the cause of our lives.
I could create that I am NOT the creator of my world
and further more:
I could create things bigger than "myself" (bigger than my personality)
...like an addiction...or 'outside controlling factors'.
Some people seem to have created a personality like that.
The point is: we are creators.
I've covered this in loads of blog postings - The manifestation of beliefs in the physical and mental realms. Beliefs and how they create the world is old spiritual news and really got going with the "New Thought" Movement over a hundred years ago , went through Napoleon Hill with his book "Think And Grow Rich"(1937) and is widely demonstrated nowadays in a zillion places for your own research. Including the Law Of Attraction (from 1906 onwards), Hypnosis (!), The Placebo Effect (!), NLP, "The Secret" and "What The Bleep Do We Know" DVDs, and modern science which contrary to popular belief has moved on since Newton and even Einstein (though his spiritual ponderings are very modern) ...'modern science' in Quantum Physics.
Of the whole lot -I still like the old writing of the New Thought pioneers the best - it has no 'send money here' rider and seems the most hard hitting and undiluted. But it is diluted by references to the Bible presumably to related to a then more 'God-fearing' society and also out of fear -fear of The Church. Fifty years earlier saw Charles Darwin's The Origin Of Species (1859) inflaming Christians into loud protests and probably got him banned from the Vicarage -a century or two earlier still and he may have been executed as a heretic.
"The aphorism, "As a man thinketh in his heart so is he," not only embraces the whole of a man's being, but is so comprehensive as to reach out to every condition and circumstance of his life. A man is literally what he thinks, his character being the complete sum of all his thoughts."
'As A Man Thinketh' essay by James Allen (1902) [ it's a free pdf...]
I am not a fully paid up member of the New Thought Movement. Though very groovy stuff all the authors see a healthy body, and an uplifted happy personality as desirable.
Personally I don't care how miserable you are or whether you live or die -I don't think it matters.Ooops!
But that's the Big Me -the Mini Me feels your pain - I guess I live a double life!!!
"Namaste", the greeting, in the West means " The Divine in me greets the Divine in you" ; and thus I see your Divinity, I see your Vastness, and I love you no matter what you think you are, or do to others, or yourself, and should you convince yourself that you are a person and should you have that person experience sadness then I see that as perhaps only something I may hold as upsetting for me, in the same manner one regards a child crying over a broken toy - the longer she weeps the more likely I will too!
There's a mini-Paloma technology here -
when everything goes pear shaped and emotions and judgements are ablaze - step back and feel the Divinity in the 'enemy'. Feel their Hugeness. And you will see your own Splendidness also - and you will smile and you will be in the Promised Land :)
We are creators - you get what you believe !
.Creating emotions. + Dealing with unwanted emotions.
Well emotions are there.
And I am saying that we created them.
But rather than go there I would like to jump to 'dealing with unwanted emotions' because that's easier to explain. It's a technology of sorts.
I suppose an emotion could be represented as a film covering what we see.
Perhaps a happy layer. Or an angry layer . Or a bored layer.
Different objects may have different emotions enveloping them - but the concept seems to work.
Try to look at what your emotions look like - do they look like a film over things or appear as a veil before the world or perhaps follow the 'rose tinted spectacles' idea?
The main concept here is to be looking at emotions rather than imagining them as something inherent to who we are.
So if I find an unwanted emotion appearing -I don't concern myself with why or how or anything.
My interest is to dissolve it.
This is done -spookily or metaphysically - ie ..just like that! Poof or ping -or whoosh - Gone.
I suppose my power to dissolve unwanted emotions stems from who I think I really am.
Like you -I cannot define myself - my core -because it's the ineffable ,indefinable me.
But
Whatever I am -it is something that can also dissolve emotions - it's that simple.
Signpost >> Don't think -just try that dissolving emotions thing..
Again -to try to figure this out with the mind is just a waste of time.
In fact anything in the mind is erasable! A thought, a belief, a judgement , label , an emotion - whatever you find that your attention is on.
I find I don't need to know where or when or how this mental manifestation arrived.
All I know is that I can erase or dissolve it if I choose.
These actions are done in 'The Now' - there's no mental excursion into the recorded past or any mental mind computations at all.
'The Now' implies time -but it is used, so I used it, but I don't like using it.
Where is time,linear time,tick-tock in the Real You?
(These actions,dissolving things in the mind are done in "This").
The mind has things or objects in it - like cars are things (I said forget about cars).
The whole point is - the Real-Me-whatever-that-is-thingy - is looking at the mind and playing with it.
.Some recapping.
I create my world
I create my personality
What you really are is a ..erm...the thing that you couldn't define when you look !!!
The thing that sits as author and creator of the mind - The "Whatever That Is"
The Real You - The 'Whatever That Is' is looking at the mind.
The mind is the target not the method.
The mind is the target not the method. (yes indeed).
Dropping back into the mind and trying the old habit of deductive reasoning just goes nowhere.
Thus we can 'fix', erase, dissolve anything that comes from the mind including
Any unwanted thought or incoming stream of thoughts
Any unwanted judgement that pops up
Any unwanted emotion that appears.
Any unwanted desire - that could be something you like the sound of?
We are taking as given -that we have made all these.
BUT...
We are not concerned with when why or how we made them -only that they are here now and unwanted.
I've been doing this sort of thing for a while -many years.
And when one thing appears in your face and you dissolve it -often other stuff arises.
This maybe related issues -or insights into the origin of it all.
But my focus remains on the sort of mind I want to have and not on idle archaeology!!
I have tried digging around in the mind - it can be interesting but it has only been an excursion. It's up to you but remember that the mind is the target and not to start adding thinking to the things you find.
This is a technology of sorts and is results orientated.
.Desires regarding this - Desires regarding clearing 'unwanteds' from the mind.
(I put this towards the end because Desire is a big deal these days).
Desire perhaps is deeply ingrained in the western mind - ambitions and all that.
For desires -remember they reside in the mind!
Desire resides in the mind. (yes indeed).
And the mind is the target !
No need to want to get this done - that's a mind computation
No need to be successful at it - that's mental also.
Just erase stuff as and when they pop up.
You are already THAT- the Whatever-you-really-are-thing !!!
Signpost >> Don't think about this -just deal with what arises.
Thinking just doesn't work here! (yawn -as I keep saying).
Chill Girl -It's all okay!!!
Be cool Dude - !!!
we
are
groovy.
.More recapping.
Its worth me repeating:
The mind is the target not the method -
Dropping back into the mind and trying the old habit of deductive reasoning just goes nowhere.
If I now say - I hope this article (blog #20) makes you happy -you may see the joke.
But it may add happiness and take away unwanted stuff when living as a person.
(It's a good job I didn't begin with that sentence! ).
.Viewpoint shift. Shifting to the Real Me to look at the mind.
Signpost >> I am Really Struggling now so LOOK >>
Because language is from the mind and thus is limited.
The Person - the personality and the 'Whatever-That-Is' -Real-Me now may seem as points of view.
The Person mostly is the mind or at least seems defined by it.
The Person is made with the mind - perhaps -doesn't matter -these are just thoughts LOL
The Real-Me isn't ! And just sees the mind as another thing.
I've called them Mini-Me and Real-Me in earlier writings.
So a shift of viewpoint occurs when we pop out of a the mind and the person we normally think we are.
The better I can point you at the Real-You -the better you can 'go there' and do the
Viewpoint shift.
And with the viewpoint shift -you can clear unwanteds in the mind and have a happier Person -viewpoint for when you return to it.
.If you just cannot get into the Real-Me Spooky Concept - try this...
Okay.
Go with a proper new viewpoint
This is solid and can be seen by the mind.
Create a Higher Self.
Shift 'up' to that.
From 'up here' you can see the 'snail trail' of the person you have been.
"Oooooo look how unhappy she is about THAT!!!!!"
Step out of your personality.
The viewpoint shift.
From here you can do the same thing, clearing unwanteds from the Person- Mini-Me's mind that you now see laid out before you.
But chill !! All is well.
Don't worry about slipping back into the old you.
Forget about that.
It's just thought.
There may be clouds but The Sun is always shining
There may be unwanteds but you must feel somewhere that behind all that is a Real You or this Higher self that is not bothered about anything :))
.Okay enough.
.Final spooky comments.
Using the 'Real Me' we create a person and personality -with - the mind - and only here do we start "I am".
You may discover - that even the bestest wildest emotions like joy or ecstasy, do not rival not having an emotion at all !!! (Don't even THINK about calling that 'Bliss' -haha).
.
Now that is spooky!
.Imagine.
Imagine your are sitting at your desk one Saturday afternoon perhaps following something of interest on the internet.
When suddenly
Whoooosh
You are transported to a vast vast infinite sea or ocean of light.
And you look and there seem to be all the pretty colours there
And the feeling is just overwhelming
It's love but no!
It is more than love
And you loose yourself in it
And you begin to realise that this infinite beauty of light and love and everything is you.
And you just float there bathing in everything that you are
And you know that some where some part of you is probably weeping tears of joy
And because you are British and because you are nicely educated and went to a respectable university and because Mummy and Daddy were middle class and because you like to use words like uncouth and unseemly in long complicated sentences. Because of all these things you say to yourself
"Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck!"
Love,
The Very Spooky
Paloma Porta
31st March 2012
